原来你还在我心中

三个月了。 我们分开已经三个月了。。。
今天在电脑中找东西时， 不小心的打开了存有你相片的 folder.
看着你， 眼泪在不知不觉中流了下来。。。
我以为我已经放下你了。
可是, 原来你还在我心中。。。

有一位朋友对我说：“当你真正可以放下他时， 让我知道。 我想照顾你。”
我也以为我很快就可以忘记你， 和你的一切。
夜深人静的时候， 我还是会很痛苦， 很想你。
为什么我还要想你呢？
为什么我还要为了你去折磨我自己呢？
我骗不了自己去尝试接受别人， 至少现在还是不行。。
就因为你还在我心里。。

突然好想你／五月天

每天每天明明身邊充滿著笑聲。應該很開心的，我卻又覺得特別孤單。。。 只因你已不在我身邊。。。 好想你！

詞曲:阿信(五月天)

最怕空氣突然安靜　 最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶　突然翻滾絞痛著 不平息
最怕突然　聽到你的消息
想念如果會有聲音　不願那是悲傷的哭泣

事到如今　 終於讓自己屬於　我自己
只剩眼淚　 還騙不過自己
突然好想你　你會在哪裡　過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你　突然鋒利的回憶　突然模糊的眼睛

我們像一首最美麗的歌曲　
變成兩部悲傷的電影
為什麼你　帶我走過最難忘的旅行然後留下　最痛的紀念品

我們　那麼甜那麼美那麼相信　那麼瘋那麼熱烈的曾經
為何我們還是要奔向各算的幸福和遺憾中老去

突然好想你　你會在哪裡　過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你　突然鋒利的回憶　突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空氣突然安靜　 最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶　突然翻滾絞痛著　不平息
最怕突然　聽到你的消息
最怕此生　已經決心自己過　沒有你　卻又突然　聽到你的消息

Heavenly Days

新垣結衣 - Heavenly Days



目覚ましが鳴る前に起きて 時を止める

思い出せるのはもうなんとなくだけど君の事

一億分の君に会えた奇跡なんかも

いつの間にか忘れちゃうかな

忘れた事さえもきっと忘れてしまうの？



heavenly days

胸のポケットの部屋

君の消えたぬくもりを探すよ

もう二度と君を想うことはなくても

まだ少し暖かいあの日々に鍵をかけて



歩きつかれて 座り込んで 途方にくれて

叶わない夢 “運命”とか ふたりなら言えた

改札口で 言えなかった 言いたかった

“ありがとう”って言葉は多分

“さよなら”よりも悲しい言葉に思うの



heavenly days

うまく笑えてたかな？

最後のキスシーン震える君の手も

握れなかった 涙さえ落ちなかった

一人ぽっちになり 今さら 溢れ出すよ



heavenly days

胸のポケットの部屋

君の消えたぬくもりを探すよ

もう二度と君を想うことはなくても

手を伸ばしてみても ここにはもう居ないよ

新しい光の下 歩き出すよ



Translation

I turn off the time to wake up before the alarm clock ressounds

I don’t know why but I can already remember you

I wonder if, before I know it, I’ll forget

even the miracle of being able to meet you for one hundred minutes

Will I end up forgetting even that I’ve forgotten?



Heavenly days

in the room in the pocket of my heart

I look for your vanished warmth

Even if there’s no way to feel you ever again, ah

I’m locking up those days that are still a bit warm



Tired of walking, I sat down and was at a loss, if you were with me

We could have talked about something like our unbearable dream’s fate

I couldn’t say it by the ticket barrier,

I wanted to say That I feel “Thank you” are maybe words much sadder than “goodbye”



Heavenly days,

I wonder if I could smile properly

At the scene of our last kiss,

I couldn’t even grasp your shivering hands,

not even my tears fell, ah

Now that it’s too late, they overflow when I’m alone



Heavenly days,

in the room in the pocket of my heart

I look for your vanished warmth

Even if there’s no way to feel you ever again, ah

Even if I stretch out my hands, you’re not here anymore

I’ll walk on under a new light

Study?

Thinking to go back as a student again...
But I have no ideas what to major in...
Definitely not in Engineering again...
Business..? Emm...
Child study... after Lee told me that it needs to continue with Teaching Program which may last for few years.. I need to re-consider it...
I prefer to study on child psychological related courses...
Also, country to go to study is a problem too...
At first, my first choice is to UK. I've nv been there... and I want to travel the whole EU... experience Europeans lifestyle... how nice it is... However, the tuition fee is killing me... too much for me even I work part time earning GBP 300 per mth... not enough to cover my other expenses...
Aus... is my 2nd choice... US is my last choice...
This afternoon, PC told me in Swiss got some universities using English too... So my 2nd choice now becomes Swiss.. hehe... Hope we can find a school with english as teaching medium and the tuition fee is affordable... Pleaseee.. let me go to Swiss to study >.<

~03.06.09~

Oo.. my first blog is created on 03.06.09. Quite a nice day~

I am back... to the world... after 2 mths healing my wound...
I decide to bury everything related to him...
And I will start my "single and available" life from now on... =)

I find that blogging isn't an easy job... it takes me quite a while to write even just few sentences... =p
Sorry kw, I am not good in writing... hehe..